". . . little shall I grace my cause

In speaking for myself. Yet, by your gracious patience,

I will a round unvarnish'd tale deliver . . ."

(William Shakespeare's Othello, I.iii.88-90)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Praise Chorus?

Today the Church catholic (meaning the Christian church around the world, not just the Roman Catholic Church) celebrated the Second Sunday of Easter by hearing the story of Thomas, who when told by the other disciples that they had seen the Lord, replied, "Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe" (John 20:25). Because of his insistence on seeing Jesus, for himself, in the flesh, Thomas has long had the adjective "Doubting" attached to his name. But I think Thomas had it right. He wanted to see his Lord, and when he not only saw Him but touched the wounds in Jesus' hands and side, he believed and confessed: "My Lord and my God!" In that short sentence, Thomas models the spiritual life of the Christian who, when called to faith by God and confronted with Law and Gospel in the person of Christ, can do no other but exclaim, "My Lord and my God!" It is one of the best stories in all of Scripture.

Today at my church, a congregation of the Lutheran Church-Missouri Synod, we heard the choir sing the traditional Tanzanian song "Nimemwona Bwana" (the song was sung by the junior high choir at one service and the adult choir at another). The full text is simple--

Nimemwona Bwana, anapendeza.

Here's the translation:

We have seen the Lord, and He looks good!

(Sometimes instead of "good" the translation is "nice" or "beautiful"--but I really like the word "good." What is the Lord if not Goodness incarnate?)

Anyway, it strikes me that there are those, maybe even some of you reading, who might not appreciate this text being sung for a church service. If you don't like what has come to be known as a "praise chorus" in Christian worship, you might not like this song. It has some of the elements of what some object to in contemporary Christian praise and worship songs: the text is simple, it appears to be light on doctrine, it doesn't tell the full salvation story, and it is repetitive (my friend Susan recently wrote about that last item here). AND it has percussion and swaying bodies!

Yet I think this was a perfect song for this day. Think about it: we hear about Thomas, who wanted to see, and who when he did, believed. And then we hear joyfully proclaimed by the choir the words, "We have seen the Lord, and He looks good!"

I don't like praise choruses in church either. But I loved this song in our liturgy today. So I had to wonder, in light of the similarities listed above, how is it different from a praise chorus? Well, to help answer that question, I have posted a video of our junior high choir singing the song. Please note that there is nothing in the performance that overtly calls attention to the performers or their personal experience of the song. There is no brandishing of microphones (no microphones at all in fact--those young soloists are projecting entirely on their own), no exhorting of the congregation to respond to the "performance" (to show that they are feelin' it, too, donchya' know), no effort to repeat the chorus ad infinitum in order to "prepare hearts" to receive the Word. The song is presented in a completely declamatory way, and I think this is why it does not fit the popular definition of "praise chorus." The goal is not to express the feelings of the singer or manipulate those of the worshiper but rather to proclaim the Word by telling the story.

"Nimemwona Bwana" from Cheryl on Vimeo.



(If you really want to know, the Cantor tried to get them to loosen up a bit more than this, and you can see a few who took his encouragement to heart, but it's not easy to take the suburbs out of suburban Chicago kids!)

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Where's Cheryl?

Some photos from one of my "day" jobs. They were taken at a recent concert at the high school where I work as a staff accompanist. This concert was actually the first in which we were able to perform in the auditorium, as the school is newly built and construction is ongoing.

It looks like my hair is in my face in the shot of the final bow, but it's not: that is a shadow of some sort.

In the second photo I am sitting on stage near the piano but not playing: the other accompanist and I had to switch out between movements of Leonard Bernstein's Mass because she needed to prepare to play on another number performed from a back corner of the auditorium immediately following this piece. It would have been terribly distracting for me to clomp across the stage mid-piece, so I positioned myself onstage at the beginning of the piece and at the proper time she slid off the bench and I slid on.

The third shot shows me actually seated at the piano, playing. I like this one because the lights bring out the red in my hair! (I have too often been told in the last 10 years that I have brown hair, and I beg to differ. It's red, I say! RED! )










By the way, this is my 1000th post. :-)

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Weekend Recap

Some photos from the weekend for my readers who are not on Facebook (hi, Mom!). There are also a few here that I didn't post on Facebook.



Easter Egg Decorating




Vigil (Evan loves helping build the fire)







Evan and friends looking for their Alleluia butterflies





The only picture I got of Trevor (center) all weekend. He was too busy, helping his dad out at every last Good Friday and Easter service (that's seven services in all).




Evan in his Easter bonnet



Evan and his dad



Caitlin & her dad



Caitlin in her Easter dress





Me

Something to Celebrate

While the United States of America continues to be held hostage, it appears that things may looking up for my denomination, The Lutheran Church-Missouri Synod:

The Numbers Are In

Probably the majority of my readers already understand the significance of this information. For those of you who don't, trust me: it is very good news and gives me hope for the future of my church body and its commitment to bringing the Good News of Christ Crucified to both its members and the world.

Here
is additional analysis from the Brothers of John the Steadfast.

"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you."--John 14:18

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

PPSS

I spent close to an hour on the phone today trying to handle some of my mom's medical affairs. Later I found myself driving in the car with my 6-year-old. Evan has been thinking a lot about heaven lately, as evidenced by his many questions regarding what it will be like there. Some of the questions I am able to answer, but some are "above my pay grade." ☺ Today I finally just had to tell him, "I don't know, Evan. But when we get to heaven, all our questions will be answered."

I had to laugh when in the back of my head a little voice continued, " . . . in the order in which they were received."

I think I'm suffering from post-phonetic-stress-syndrome.

Troubling Morning Headlines

Obama Limits When U.S. Would Use Nuclear Arms

So, no nukes. Not even as a response to a rogue state attacking us chemically or biologically. Great.

Obama's 17-Minute Non-Answer Answer

Roger Simon of Pajamas Media says this is just more evidence of a President with a "serious personality disorder."

Finally, Mort Kondracke observes that Obama Constantly Puts Mideast Blame on Israel, not Arabs. Why am I not surprised?

Not a great way to wake up. These were three of the five headlines on today's Real Clear Politics Early Morning Update. Pretty discouraging stuff.

So I think I will turn my attention to a more encouraging headline, and really, the only headline that matters:

CHRIST IS RISEN! HE IS RISEN INDEED! ALLELUIA!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Good Friday

I've enjoyed the uptick in my sitemeter that daily posting has brought about this week. But for the next few days I have some other things to focus on. May each of us fix our eyes on the Cross and see there both our condemnation and our only Hope. God bless you and yours.

In Christ,

Cheryl

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Spring Break Checklist

At the end of last week I made a list of things I wanted to accomplish over spring break. (As homeschoolers, we don't have a spring break per sé, but I have a break from my school and community accompanying, and my husband has a break from his teaching responsibilities. We are not taking a break from homeschooling this week, having taken lots of other breaks as needed over the course of the year!)

So back to the list. Seeing as how we're halfway through the week, it seems a good time to review my progress.

Tasks completed or partially completed:

Catch up on grading/looking at children's schoolwork - almost done
Take myself for an appointment with a gastrointestinal specialist - scheduled for tomorrow
Eye appointments for me and Caitlin - done
Practice driving with Trevor (slight progress: one practice session has been done with Dad)
Take Caitlin shopping for clothing - partially done - Easter/Confirmation outfit is purchased, but she still needs some summer things
Take Evan shopping for shoes - done
Change out antivirus program on computers (we get free antivirus coverage from Comcast and they are changing from McAfee to Norton) - one computer done, one to go
Take van for an oil change--scheduled for tomorrow
Engage in some cultural literacy: watch The Sound of Music with the teenagers

Not yet completed:

Send broken coffeemaker for warranty service (I wouldn't bother except for the fact that this is a Cadillac coffeemaker that is less than a year old)
Take cable box that we are no longer using to turn in at Comcast office
Call for warranty service on new fridge (icemaker not working properly)
Decide on and implement a back-up system for all computers
Load new operating system onto computers (can't wait to replace Vista!)
Send husband's broken laptop out for repair
Write some long overdue thank you notes
Make some significant progress on the taxes
Deep clean the master bedroom
Take older son to the bank to take care of some money matters
Stop by the T-Mobile store to get help with some issues I am having with my cell phone

I got a slow start on my checklist, having spent the weekend nursing a virus. But hey, it's better than I thought! The lists are almost equal. I guess I've accomplished a bit more than I realized. Now, though, we are moving from largely unscheduled days to having something to do every night: "mega" choir rehearsal tonight, followed by Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, Easter Vigil, and Easter services for the next four days. Don't get me wrong: I love, love, love Holy Week. I love the order and purpose that the liturgy brings to each day and to the week as a whole. But I must realistically acknowledge that at this point each day's priority moves from checking things off the list to participating in the celebration of the Passion and Resurrection of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. If I am able to fit a few chores in around the ages, great--but that will not be the most important thing. And amazingly enough, that is not a source of stress but a source of peace, reminding me that my little checklist is fleeting, but Christ's is forever. There will always be things on my temporal to-do list, because as soon as one thing is crossed off another comes to take its place. But the eternal list--the one with that little detail about paying for my sins--was wiped clean 2000 years ago on the Cross, never to be replaced by anything else.

May we each see, in the empty tomb, a blank piece of paper upon which we need never write another thing, because Christ has done it all.

Monday, March 29, 2010

For Ladies Only - UPDATED

Guys, you can read if you want, but this is a girl post. You have been warned.

I went to Meijer yesterday. Picked up a few things for both my mom and myself, dropped off Mom's things with her, and returned home. Several hours later I realized I was missing a few items. Checked the receipt--yup, they were paid for. Called Mom just to make sure I hadn't inadvertently left them with her. She didn't have them. Checked the car multiple times--no remaining bags. I know I didn't leave them in the cart. I have a clear memory of pushing an empty cart to the cart stall.

If you've ever shopped at Meijer you know that it is quite easy to leave a bag behind. The empty bags are stored in a turnstile, and as the cashier fills one bag he or she rotates the turnstile to start on another. It is easy to miss a bag because you can't really tell from looking whether the bags are full or empty.

So I called Meijer, receipt in hand. First got the Service Desk. Told her what three items I was missing as well as various bits of information from the receipt. Why she needed all that beats me because the next thing she did was transfer me to the store manager. Here we go again.

"What are you missing?"

I told him.

"Okay, let me go check."

(Background noise)

"Thanks for waiting, ma'am, they're still looking."

(More background noise.)

"No, there's nothing like that here. Anytime something is left the cashiers are required to turn it in and log it. But we don't have a bag with those items."

Well, great. Now what? I was missing over $10 worth of merchandise. I tried again.

"But I'm sure it was left in the checkout lane. It was probably put in the cart of the customer right after me. Are you telling me there's nothing I can do? "

"I'm sorry, ma'am."

Okay, I'm getting a little testy now. I want that bag.

"Do you think I'm making this up? I mean come on, this is kind of a weird assortment of items, don't you think? Do you really think I would go to all this trouble and spend all this time for no good reason? I'm sure the bag was left behind. The things in the bag were the last few things in my cart. Isn't there something you can do?"

(Pause.) Then--

"What items are you missing again?"

Sigh. One more time, with feeling.

"Hairspray, chocolate, and feminine napkins." (I am not making this up.)

"That's all? Only those three things?"

"That's all. Nothing else."

"Tell you what. Come in tomorrow and ask for Carlos and we'll replace those things for you."

Success!

Phew. I'm not sure if I would have worked so hard for any other bag. But that one was golden.

Update: Went to Meijer last night. Collected my items and went to the customer service desk. Explained the situation to the young, female clerk there and asked for "Carlos."

"Carlos?"

"Yes, Carlos, the manager. He told me to come today and ask for him. He said he would be here after 2:00."

"Hmmm, I don't know of any Carlos here." [WHAT THE HECK???] "But let me see your receipt. What is it you were missing?"

"Well, there was this, and this, . . . "

"And some chocolates for you, too, I see!"

I looked to my side to catch the female customer at the next register smiling.

"Yes," I said, "it's quite an assortment, isn't it? All the things a lady can't do without!"

Polite smiles turned to broad, knowing grins. It was a fleeting but deeply felt sisterhood forged amidst the otherwise trivial proceedings at the return counter. We, the assembled, understood each other, even if no one else did.

Back to the customer service clerk. "Well," she said, "this receipt IS from our store. I don't see why we can't just bag these up for you. I'm sorry for your trouble."

More smiles. By this time I was feeling so close to these ladies I wanted to take them out for coffee. I'll have to pay it forward some other time.

And to Carlos, wherever (and whoever) you are . . . you have a lot to learn about women, and about customer service. And I know just the person to teach you. She works at my neighborhood Meijer . . . .

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Palm Sunday

Two videos from today's Palm Sunday liturgy:

1) The processional with cross, acolytes, pastors, and children's choir waving palm branches as the congregation sings "All Glory, Laud and Honor" (Lutheran Service Book 442). I wish I had panned around the church a bit more--we have a beautiful sanctuary--but I was so enthralled with the children that I focused on them the whole time. It took a little while for them to synchronize the palm choreography they had planned, but I think most of them eventually figured it out! Listen for the children's robust singing on the refrain. They loved this!

Palm Sunday Procession, Bethany Lutheran Church, March 28, 2010 from Cheryl on Vimeo.


2) A musical sequence featuring the Verse of the Day ("The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified"--John 12:23, setting by Bruce Backer, sung beautifully by our associate cantor and her mother) and leading into the Cantor's organ introduction to the Hymn of the Day--Lutheran Service Book 444, "No Tramp of Soldiers' Marching Feet" (listen for the en chamade).

The words of the hymn are below the video. I think the Cantor's interpretation dramatically communicates the irony therein: while the hymn notes that Jesus's entry into Jerusalem lacks the martial pomp and circumstance that would normally accompany an earthly king, the martial element is there in the hymn nonetheless, ominously foreshadowing Jesus's arrest, trial, and execution only a few days later.


Palm Sunday, Bethany Lutheran Church, March 28, 2010 from Cheryl on Vimeo.


No tramp of soldiers' marching feet With banners and with drums.
No sound of music's martial beat: 'The King of glory comes!'
To greet what pomp of kingly pride No bells in triumph ring.
No city gates swing open wide: 'Behold, behold your King!

And yet He comes. The children cheer; With palms His path is strown.
With ev'ry step the cross draws near: The King of glory's throne.
Astride a colt he passes by As loud hosannas ring.
Or else the very stones would cry 'Behold, behold your King!'

What fading flow'rs His road adorn; The palms, how soon laid down!
No bloom or leaf but only thorn The King of glory's crown.
The soldiers mock, the rabble cries, The streets with tumult ring.
As Pilate to the mob replies, 'Behold, behold your King!'

Now He who bore for mortals' sake The cross and all its pains
And chose a servant's form to take, The King of glory reigns.
Hosanna to the Savior's name Till heaven's rafters ring,
And all the ransomed host proclaim, 'Behold, behold your King!

Friday, March 26, 2010

With Praise Like This, Who Needs Criticism?

Fidel Castro is applauding the government takeover of health care signed into law this week by President Obama. According to this AP article, "Cuba provides free health care and education to all its citizens, and heavily subsidizes food, housing, utilities and transportation, policies that have earned it global praise."

Well, there ya' go. We have arrived. Our President promised to change the way America is viewed internationally, and he is doing just that, eliciting praise from such champions of human rights as the dictator of Cuba. We are now on track to in due time bring Cuba's high standard of health care* to the United States of America. I can't wait.

*WARNING: This is a link to a page on "The Real Cuba" website. It contains multiple thumbnail images documenting the current condition of "health" care in Cuba. The images are small but nevertheless deeply disturbing. If you would prefer not to see them, you can just take my word that they do not suggest the existence in Cuba of a leader or government that honestly cares about about the health and well-being of its citizens.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Homeschooling and Unschooling

Highly recommended: a GREAT series of posts on unschooling from my friend Jane. I think all parents--homeschoolers or not, unschoolers or not--can benefit from reading because what Jane is essentially talking about is a lifestyle that frees up children to reach their full potential. Yuck--that sounds like such a cliché, but that's really what it's about. In our house we have both schooly and unschooly periods, depending on the prevailing goals and circumstances. But if I h-a-a-d to pick one or the other, I would say we lean towards the unschooly. Our children have been allowed great freedom to pursue their passions and to govern how they allot their time. We don't worry much about grades or "covering" material. We just live together and by the grace of God love and learn our way through our days.

Here are links to Jane's posts, in order:

Gatto (about educational writer John Taylor Gatto, mentioned here in several recent posts as well)

Why Unschooling?

Style

The Company You Keep (about socialization)

One More Unschooling Post (about Jane's kids--a case study in unschooling)

Go. Read. It will be worth it, I promise.

Memo to the Nanny State

So, a California lawmaker wants to ban the inclusion of toys in fast food kids' meals. He says the toys are an enticement to children to eat unhealthy food.

Never mind that it's not the kids buying the meals but their parents. When was the last time you saw a six-year-old drive his trike through McDonald's?

Clearly this is yet another instance of government attempting to usurp individual freedom and in this case the authority of the parent. Expect more of this sort of thing with Obamacare because after all, if the government is paying for everyone's health care, it has the duty to tell us how to eat.

I saw the lawmaker in question on Fox News this morning, and when he was asked, "Isn't it the parent's job to decide what his child should or should not eat?" his response was, "Yes, but we just think parents could use a little help."

I'm reminded of the wisdom of Ronald Reagan, who once stated, "The nine most terrifying words in the English language are 'I'm from the government and I'm here to help.'" Who does this guy think he is? The sheer, brazen audacity--to look me in the face and tell me that I can't successfully rear a child without his high-falutin' help.

Well, I have news for him.

IT'S NOT THE TOY, MAN.

It's the French fries, as any parent well knows.

As long as there are French fries in Happy Meals, kids wll want Happy Meals. Wonder how long it will be before they figure that out and Happy Meals are outlawed?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

It Makes Sense, Actually

Is it any wonder that a nation of government school products who have been conditioned in alienation, emotional and intellectual dependency, class stratification, envy, confusion, indifference and fear would elect leaders whose message is "Look to me and I will take care of you and tell you what to do" rather than "You are capable and you don't need me to do for you what you can do for youself"?

As John Taylor Gattor observes, our public schools are not failing. They are doing exactly what they were always intended to do.

It's Coming

I have heard it from several people in recent days, most notably Charles Krauthammer. Get ready for a national sales (value added) tax. Obama has had it in his pocket all along and now it won't be long until he pulls it out.

Crossing the Rubicon

No, this post is not about democracy. It's about chicken nuggets. In this case the Rubicon is the realization that my 6-year-old now reads and counts and pays attention well enough to know that his supper should have consisted of ten Chicken McNuggets, not nine. Hmmm, wonder where that tenth one went? Guess they miscounted at McDonald's . . . .

::Sigh.:: He'll be counting his chicken nuggets from here on out.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Call to Action

I know. It's the pits. BUT WE MUST NOT GIVE UP! WE MUST NOT STICK OUR HEADS IN THE SAND! WE MUST NOT LET THEM WIN!

Sorry. Just wanted to make sure you were paying attention.

If you read nothing else today, read this from Bill Whittle of Pajamas Media. Please.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

"The war is actually begun"

The words of Patrick Henry have been ringing in my ears tonight. Amazing how appropriate they are to the situation at hand. Bart Stupak would do well to read them. Trusting the likes of Obama & Pelosi is akin to trusting George III. By the way, take note of the date.

Speech to the Virginia Convention, March 23, 1775

No man thinks more highly than I do of the patriotism, as well as abilities, of the very worthy gentlemen who have just addressed the House. But different men often see the same subject in different lights; and, therefore, I hope it will not be thought disrespectful to those gentlemen if, entertaining as I do opinions of a character very opposite to theirs, I shall speak forth my sentiments freely and without reserve. This is no time for ceremony. The questing before the House is one of awful moment to this country. For my own part, I consider it as nothing less than a question of freedom or slavery; and in proportion to the magnitude of the subject ought to be the freedom of the debate. It is only in this way that we can hope to arrive at truth, and fulfill the great responsibility which we hold to God and our country. Should I keep back my opinions at such a time, through fear of giving offense, I should consider myself as guilty of treason towards my country, and of an act of disloyalty toward the Majesty of Heaven, which I revere above all earthly kings.

Mr. President, it is natural to man to indulge in the illusions of hope. We are apt to shut our eyes against a painful truth, and listen to the song of that siren till she transforms us into beasts. Is this the part of wise men, engaged in a great and arduous struggle for liberty? Are we disposed to be of the number of those who, having eyes, see not, and, having ears, hear not, the things which so nearly concern their temporal salvation? For my part, whatever anguish of spirit it may cost, I am willing to know the whole truth; to know the worst, and to provide for it.

I have but one lamp by which my feet are guided, and that is the lamp of experience. I know of no way of judging of the future but by the past. And judging by the past, I wish to know what there has been in the conduct of the British ministry for the last ten years to justify those hopes with which gentlemen have been pleased to solace themselves and the House. Is it that insidious smile with which our petition has been lately received? Trust it not, sir; it will prove a snare to your feet. Suffer not yourselves to be betrayed with a kiss. Ask yourselves how this gracious reception of our petition comports with those warlike preparations which cover our waters and darken our land. Are fleets and armies necessary to a work of love and reconciliation? Have we shown ourselves so unwilling to be reconciled that force must be called in to win back our love? Let us not deceive ourselves, sir. These are the implements of war and subjugation; the last arguments to which kings resort. I ask gentlemen, sir, what means this martial array, if its purpose be not to force us to submission? Can gentlemen assign any other possible motive for it? Has Great Britain any enemy, in this quarter of the world, to call for all this accumulation of navies and armies? No, sir, she has none. They are meant for us: they can be meant for no other. They are sent over to bind and rivet upon us those chains which the British ministry have been so long forging. And what have we to oppose to them? Shall we try argument? Sir, we have been trying that for the last ten years. Have we anything new to offer upon the subject? Nothing. We have held the subject up in every light of which it is capable; but it has been all in vain. Shall we resort to entreaty and humble supplication? What terms shall we find which have not been already exhausted? Let us not, I beseech you, sir, deceive ourselves.
Sir, we have done everything that could be done to avert the storm which is now coming on. We have petitioned; we have remonstrated; we have supplicated; we have prostrated ourselves before the throne, and have implored its interposition to arrest the tyrannical hands of the ministry and Parliament. Our petitions have been slighted; our remonstrances have produced additional violence and insult; our supplications have been disregarded; and we have been spurned, with contempt, from the foot of the throne! In vain, after these things, may we indulge the fond hope of peace and reconciliation. There is no longer any room for hope. If we wish to be free-- if we mean to preserve inviolate those inestimable privileges for which we have been so long contending--if we mean not basely to abandon the noble struggle in which we have been so long engaged, and which we have pledged ourselves never to abandon until the glorious object of our contest shall be obtained--we must fight! I repeat it, sir, we must fight! An appeal to arms and to the God of hosts is all that is left us!

They tell us, sir, that we are weak; unable to cope with so formidable an adversary. But when shall we be stronger? Will it be the next week, or the next year? Will it be when we are totally disarmed, and when a British guard shall be stationed in every house? Shall we gather strength by irresolution and inaction? Shall we acquire the means of effectual resistance by lying supinely on our backs and hugging the delusive phantom of hope, until our enemies shall have bound us hand and foot? Sir, we are not weak if we make a proper use of those means which the God of nature hath placed in our power. The millions of people, armed in the holy cause of liberty, and in such a country as that which we possess, are invincible by any force which our enemy can send against us. Besides, sir, we shall not fight our battles alone. There is a just God who presides over the destinies of nations, and who will raise up friends to fight our battles for us. The battle, sir, is not to the strong alone; it is to the vigilant, the active, the brave. Besides, sir, we have no election. If we were base enough to desire it, it is now too late to retire from the contest. There is no retreat but in submission and slavery! Our chains are forged! Their clanking may be heard on the plains of Boston! The war is inevitable--and let it come! I repeat it, sir, let it come.

It is in vain, sir, to extenuate the matter. Gentlemen may cry, Peace, Peace-- but there is no peace. The war is actually begun! The next gale that sweeps from the north will bring to our ears the clash of resounding arms! Our brethren are already in the field! Why stand we here idle? What is it that gentlemen wish? What would they have? Is life so dear, or peace so sweet, as to be purchased at the price of chains and slavery? Forbid it, Almighty God! I know not what course others may take; but as for me, give me liberty or give me death!


Saturday, March 20, 2010

"How dull those walks, and those deaths, made all my toys"

Yesterday I attended a homeschooling conference, where I was privileged to meet and listen to John Taylor Gatto. Mr. Gatto is a former New York City Teacher of the Year who resigned from the teaching profession after 30 years because, as he explained at the time in an op-ed for The Wall Street Journal, he wanted to find a job that did not ask him to hurt children. Shortly thereafter he began writing books devoted to accurately detailing the history and purpose of what he calls "confinement schooling" in the United States. Those books include Dumbing Us Down: The Hidden Curriculum of Compulsory Education (1992); The Underground History of American Education (2001); and Weapons of Mass Instruction (2008).

Mr. Gatto is not a homeschooler, but homeschoolers have embraced him (and he them) because of their shared realization of the destructive nature of institutional education as it is practiced in this country. In his writings on the development of American compulsory education, he convincingly argues that the motivation of those who originally promoted and developed it was not philanthropic, considering the best interest of the student, but selfish, considering rather the growing need of an industrialized nation to have an ever-ready supply of compliant, non-thinking workers. Schools, then, were designed to "normalize" people--to stamp out imagination and individuality so as to make them more manageable and thereby increase the efficiency of the machine: "When you flip hamburgers, sit at a computer all day, unpack and shelve merchandise from China year after year, you manage the tedium better if you have a shallow inner life, one you can escape through booze, drugs, sex, media, or other low level addictive behaviors" (Weapons of Mass Instruction, p. 14).

According to Mr. Gatto, the seven lessons that our government schools most successfully teach these days are--*

1. Confusion. There is no logical sequence to the way things are taught. Facts are presented in a disconnected way rather than in a context that gives them meaning and purpose.
2. Class position. The school population is segmented according to age, and there is no breaking out of the position into which you are born.
3. Indifference. The school day is governed by an inflexible schedule that teaches that "nothing is worth finishing and hence nothing worth starting" because the learning process is at the mercy of the teacher or the bell.
4. Emotional dependency. "By a skillful use of rewards and punishments . . . schools teach that free will, even in matters as basic as urination, must be subordinated to the whim of an authority figure."
5. Intellectual dependency. "In school, teachers tell you what to think about, how long to think about it, in what order to think about it and what evaluation should be placed on ideas and their management."
6. Self-alienation. "By breaking children away from families, cultures, religions and neighborhoods--private sources of strengths--. . . schools teach that you must not trust yourself, you must wait for the teacher to tell you not only what to do, but whether what you have done is good or bad."
7. You are watched. "Schools teach that you can't hide, that there is no sanctuary from the oversight of the state father."

My husband and I made the decision to homeschool before we were familiar with the writings of John Taylor Gatto, but as we read his books we felt confirmed in many of our gut feelings about institutional schooling. We are Christians, but that's not why we homeschool. If the secular, liberal worldview of public schools were the only issue, we could address it by sending our children to a private Christian school. But private Christian schools are by and large structured and governed by the same assumptions as public schools and as a result have the same frustration-inducing, curiosity-killing effects.

At the conference yesterday, I went up to meet Mr. Gatto before his presentation, my copy of Dumbing Us Down in hand. He graciously autographed it for me and inquired about my interest in a signed copy of Weapons of Mass Instruction. How could I say no? I have been reading it since last night (as I bide my time in a hotel room while my son plays chess) and have already found much on which to muse. Mr. Gatto gives example after example of successful, productive, meaningful lives that came about without the "benefit" of a college or high school degree or much formal schooling at all. Some of these are historical figures (Benjamin Franklin, Thomas Edison, Daniel Farragut) but others are names from our own time--people like Steve Jobs, Warren Buffet, and human genome project scientists Venter and Collins. I love the anecdote Gatto relates about complaining to his grandfather at age 7 that he was bored, to which his grandfather responded by saying that if he was bored it was his own fault . . . . "The obligation to amuse and interest myself was entirely my own, and people who didn't know that were childish people, to be avoided if possible" (Prologue, p. xiv). Makes me feel better about my own relaxed, often quite unschooly approach to learning at home--"What did you read today? And did you get those socks folded?"--as well as my lack of sympathy when my 6-year-old complains of not having anything to do: "Sorry, honey, not my problem. You're a smart boy. Go find something."

I also love Gatto's description of long, evening walks with his mother when he was a boy in Monongahela, Pennsylvania. After the breakup of her marriage, Gatto's mother had moved back to her hometown, taking her children with her. But because she was embarrassed at her single mother status, the walks always took place at night, after dark. As they walked, Gatto and his sister listened to their mother relate story after story about the town and her growing up years:

Each excursion covered roughly five miles. We wove in and out of the darkened hill streets, reaching zones of settlement I was only dimly aware existed. I still hear our footsteps crunching the fall leaves or the winter snow, or sloshing through the spring rains. I can hear our hushed whispers. Every house had a story, and mother knew all of them. Many had a symbol in the front window telling the world that some man inside had gone away off to the wars. In some windows there was a special symbol . . . which declared the man had died in service to the rest of us.

The presence of death on our walks added something wonderfully deep and profound to the rambles, a sadness reminding me at the corners of consciousness that someday my mother would be dead, too, and my sister, and myself.

From time to time mother would reminisce what a particular soldier or sailor, once her schoolmate, had been like as a living boy. For a little fellow this was like being confronted with ghosts. It was stunning drama. How dull those walks, and those deaths, made all my toys. In the face of a dramatic reality that ennobled, even the most ordinary toys were less than insignificant; they were humiliating by contrast, unspeakably childish. Real stories help a boy grow up; toys beyond a point reached in early childhood retard the hard road to maturity.

I learned more about mother and sister from those walks than I could fully comprehend back then; today I realize that the personal information gathered incidentally as we walked was the most important data I was ever to have about who we Gattos and Zimmers really were. The walks were open-source learning of the highest order. I'd gladly trade Cornell and Columbia for more of them" (pp. 59-60).

Mr. Gatto may not identify it as such, but if that's not homeschooling, I don't know what is.

*Essays by John Taylor Gatto: Notes on Education, Schooling and Curriculum, 2010.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Upside-Down World

This is beyond belief: a pro-abortion, Roman Catholic Speaker of the House praising a health care rationing bill for its supposed life-affirmingness, and invoking Joseph, the husband of Mary and earthly father of Jesus, as a symbol of the working Americans who would benefit from socialized medicine.



Read The Anchoress to hear what a real Catholic thinks about this travesty.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Chalk One Up For Homeschooling

My 14-year-old daughter takes after me. She is a word, not a number, girl. It's not that math is impossible for her. But the manipulation of numbers does not come as naturally to her as the manipulation of words. This is a child who was making up stories in her high chair.

This year Caitlin is studying algebra. She is progressing well, although at times the road gets a bit rocky. Generally she works fairly independently, but when she encounters a difficult lesson she lets me know and I spend some time watching her work through the troublesome problems. What we have noticed, though, is that I don't contribute all that much. It seems to be enough for me to come and sit by her as she goes at it. For some reason, just my being there seems to make the difference.

What gives? Well, as much as I would like to believe that it is my mere presence exuding maternal love and devotion that is responsible for her success, Caitlin and I have realized it is not that but something else. When I am next to her, she works through the problem verbally, speaking out loud the steps as she does them. Eureka! This is my word girl (as well as my highly tactile and kinesthetic can't-sit-still-must-always-be-moving-and-manipulating-something child). NO WONDER she does better when she talks about the problem. Yesterday as she and I were discussing this phenomenon it occurred to us that perhaps she should just always talk her way through her math lesson, whether I am there or not. It would be interesting to try it as an experiment and see if doing so gives her a greater success rate on the first time through a lesson.

Once again, I find myself thankful for homeschooling. No one in our house is going to care if there is someone sitting at the dining room table verbalizing her math lesson. In a regular classroom, she would be disturbing others. Here, if someone does mind (because maybe Someone is studying his chess), Caitlin (or Someone) can simply go to another room. Can't do that in a regular classroom, now, can you?

Friday, March 12, 2010

Suggested Reading

No time to blog today--the day has been full with choir practices (junior high contest is tomorrow), running various errands, and housecleaning (for the fastidious and highly finicky guests that are coming tonight). So I commend to you a rather stunning entry from my brilliant and deep-thinking daughter. If you are EITHER a fan of the TV series Lost OR if you ever give thought to big ideas of faith and human reason, I think you will appreciate this.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Let's Get This Straight

The news wires and liberal blogs are making a big deal about the revelation from Sarah Palin that several times when she was a child her parents made use of Canadian health care. Seems a good time to point out several facts:

1) Governor Palin herself shared the tidbit in a recent speech. It's not as though it was some sort of shameful secret that was dug up by an investigative reporter. Some bombshell.

2) It was Palin's parents, not Palin herself, who utilized Canadian health care. To try to paint her as a hypocrite because of a choice her parents made when she was a little girl is ridiculous.

3) From what I have read, it only happened a few times. The Palins did not have a hospital down the street--they lived in Alaska, for crying out loud. On a few occasions when speedy care was crucial, it was quicker for them to get on a train and cross the border. Mrs. Palin's father points out that in doing so they incurred greater expense because their insurance did not cover Canadian care. But when you have a kid that has had an accident and needs an ER, you go to the closest and most accessible ER, regardless of the cost. The point is that Palin's parents went over the border not because they thought the health care was better but because they needed care FAST.

Can we all move on to more important things now? Like saving the country from the socialists?

Monday, March 8, 2010

Lying Liars and the Lies They Tell



HT: The Anchoress

When in Rome . . .

Today as I instructed one of my piano students in a certain musical concept, he was reminded of something similar he had heard today from his choir director, who also happens to be my husband. (This young man, poor dear, gets a double dose of our household on Mondays). Attempting to process and connect the two pieces of information, he asked, "Oh, you mean like Cantor was talking about today? That linguini thing?"

Linguini? The Cantor does like his pasta, but I didn't remember him talking about linguini when I attended rehearsal today. I puzzled over this for a moment; then it dawned on me that my student was probably remembering another Italian word.

"Are you thinking of tenuto, Robert?" (Nor his real name.)

"Yeah, that's it! Tenuto!"

Tenuto, linguini, ritardando, lasagna, accelerando, crescendo, spaghetti, fettucini, allegro, fermata . . . no wonder my student was confused. It's all the same, really. Especially when you've had a long day at school and supper is looming!

Friday, March 5, 2010

Young Talent

The first video is of my daughter's junior high madrigal group singing at Solo & Ensemble contest last week. Don't they look and sound great? The ages are 6th-8th graders. Caitlin is on the far right.

The second video is of Caitlin singing her vocal solo (in French!) with her dad accompanying (on something that is supposed to resemble a piano).

Both the madrigal group and Caitlin received first division ratings. :-) Go Bethany Lutheran choir kids! And kudos to their director!

"Sing We, Dance We, On the Green" by Francis Pilkington (1565-1638) from Cheryl on Vimeo.



"Romance" by Claude Debussy from Cheryl on Vimeo.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Life Lesson

Last week one of the high school vocal groups I accompany had a master class with a guest clinician. Last night at rehearsal as the students were discussing the experience with their regular teacher, he expressed appreciation to the music boosters' group for paying the clinician's fee. One of the girls in the choir reacted with surprise: "She got paid for that?"

"Of course," answered my colleague. "She's a professional. Music is how she makes her living. Do you think she spent four hours driving here, working with us, and driving back home simply out of the kindness of her heart?"

"I don't know . . . I just thought you knew her and that you asked her and she came . . . I didn't realize she got paid . . . ."

Giving me a sideways glance as he smiled at his student, my friend and coworker patiently set the young lady straight: "Mary [not her real name], professional musicians never do ANYTHING for free."

No wonder I like working with this guy.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Spin Central

Evan: "I like to stay up late, Mom, because with the extra time I can get more things done."

Me: "Really? What kind of things?"

Evan: "Things around the house, like chores."

Anyone have the President's phone number? I think I can suggest a name if he ever needs a replacement for Robert Gibbs.

Friday, February 26, 2010

"You Don't Know What They Mean, Either?"

A few days ago I went to the neighborhood pharmacy to fill some prescriptions for my mom, who has recently been sent home from rehab after a fall. This store is a pharmacy and nothing else. The only thing they sell is medicine and medical supplies. I appreciate that when I go there they recognize me and know who my mom is and ask about her. If needed, they deliver her medication to her.

On this day there was a problem. When the pharmacist tried to get insurance approval online for my mom's prescriptions, he was met with several rejection codes. Unable to figure out what they meant, he got on the phone to seek assistance from the insurance company. Keep in mind that my mom is a senior citizen whose coverage is provided by the federal government. As I stood eavesdropping (what else was there for me to do?) I overheard something like this:

" . . . got these rejection codes . . . there's no key to tell me what they mean . . . 14 . . . 8 . . . 12 . . . if you provided some sort of key I wouldn't have to call you about this . . . you're telling me you don't know what they mean either? . . . . [to his assistant] See, this is why we don't want the government taking over the whole thing . . . . [to me] This will probably take a while. Why don't I call you or you can check back with us later?"

The initial cost quoted for the presciptions was over $300. It took until the next day for things to get sorted out and my mom to get properly charged for her prescriptions (her portion ended up being only around $25). Since my mom fell early in January, this was the first time she had tried to get prescriptions filled this calendar year. I am thinking that is probably why she had so much trouble and am anticipating that this won't happen again, at least not until next year. But that may be wishful thinking.

Just think. If the government takes over the entire health care system, all of us will be able to enjoy the same streamlined, efficient medical care that my mom now receives. I can't wait . . . .

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Funeral Arrangements for Louise Bolt

Visitation from 4 p.m. to 8 p.m. on Thursday, February 25, 2010 at

Friedrich Jones Funeral Home
44 South Mill Street
Naperville, Illinois 60540
(In Downtown Naperville)
Phone: 630-355-0213

Directions:

From I-88 take the Winfield Rd. exit and go south to Diehl Rd.
Left on Diehl Rd. to Mill St. Right on Mill St. for 2 miles to Funeral Home on left.
(Abundant on-site parking & street parking is available)

From Washington and 75th Street take Washington north
Turn left on Aurora Rd
Turn right on Main
Turn left on Jackson
Turn right on Mill (funeral home is on right)

Additional Visitation from 12 p.m. to 1 p.m. on Friday, February 26, 2010 at
Bethany Lutheran Church & School
1550 Modaff Road
Naperville, IL 60565
630 355-2198

Funeral at Bethany Lutheran Church at 1 p.m. on Friday, February 26, 2010

Monday, February 22, 2010

"We're Just Losing Everyone"

I had no idea yesterday morning's post would be so prophetic. Shortly after I wrote it I received word that one of our preschool teachers had died in the hospital after a long battle with cancer. Although we homeschool, all of our children have attended Lutheran preschool, and this lady was both Caitlin's and Evan's teacher. She and her husband, who is our day school's third grade teacher, have long been involved with parish music, directing school ensembles and singing in our adult choir. My friend's death has come as quite a shock to our congregation. She is a cancer survivor who was again fighting the disease, but the crisis that led to her passing Sunday morning was not at all expected. We all thought she--and we--had more time.

Louise will be missed by many. She was in the classroom until quite recently and this year was named Teacher of the Year by the Northern Illinois District.

"Lord, now lettest Thou thy servant depart in peace according to Thy Word." Rest in peace, Louise. We'll see you in heaven.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

It Sure Seems That Way, Evan

Friday night in the hotel while catching up with some online communications I noticed that composer/musician Dr. Richard Hillert had died. I called to my husband, who was in the other room, to let him know, but he couldn't make out my words. "What?" he called back. Evan, who of course has no idea who Richard Hillert is, stepped in to help, yelling loudly, "RICHARD HILLERT DIED!" and then turning around and announcing sadly, "We're just losing everyone!"

Funeral Thoughts

Home from the funeral. What a testament to a life well-lived. Friday night at the visitation it seemed as though the people would never stop coming. Because there was such a long wait to go through the receiving line, people were ushered to a pew to sit until it was almost their turn. One of the ushers told me the sanctuary was filled and emptied about 2-1/2 times. The visitation was scheduled from 4:00 until 7:00 but went until almost 9:00. I felt sorry for the family, who must have been exhausted, but I appreciated their willingness to do what they did for the sake of all who loved Pastor Freudenburg and needed this opportunity to say goodbye.

The funeral itself was magnificent. I think there must be few things as grand as an historic old church filled with the sound of God's children singing. For my readers who may be curious, the hymns were "A Mighty Fortress is Our God," "Chief of Sinners, Though I Be" (sung by a men's chorus that included my husband and older son), "Thy Strong Word," and "For All the Saints."

Evan, my youngest, did not have the opportunity to get to know Pastor Freudenburg well. When I told him we would be going to a funeral this weekend he reacted quite negatively: "I don't want to go to a funeral!" He has been to two already this year, those of his paternal grandparents. But as we waited our turn at the visitation he became impatient not because he was tired or bored but because he wanted to see Pastor. I'm glad we waited until the end because he stood for quite a while looking at Pastor's body and resisted when I tried to move him on: "I'm not done looking at him yet." The next day at the funeral he was quite bothered that the casket was closed and he couldn't see Pastor again: "I can't remember what he looks like." I assured him I had lots of pictures.

Evan is still trying to figure out this death thing. Aren't we all.

The sermon, delivered by Rev. Dr. David Peter of Concordia Seminary-St. Louis, was Christ-centered and cross-focused. Rev. Freudenburg was Rev. Peter's pastor when he was a little boy, and after he grew up and attended seminary Pastor Peter joined Pastor Freudenburg on Trinity's staff. Pastor Peter began his sermon by reviewing some of his history with Pastor Freudenburg, but then he stopped and said that he could hear Pastor Freudenburg whispering in his ear saying, "What are you doing? Why are you talking about me? Tell them about Jesus and what HE has done!" And that's what Pastor Peter did.

It was a whirlwind day, but a good one. We were unable to go to the committal or stay for the funeral luncheon because of duties at home. But we had the opportunity to see many old friends from our time at Trinity. In spite of not being all that far away, we have not been back many times over the last 10 years. I found great comfort in seeing many familiar faces and realizing that for the last 10 years they have been there, receiving the blessings of Word and Sacrament and loving one another through the trials and heartaches of this life. That's what being a church family is all about.

I know that Pastor Freudenburg's salvation has nothing to do with the way he lived his earthly life. But truly, this was a fine man, and his family can celebrate and take comfort in the knowledge of all the souls that he shepherded in his time on earth. God used him to point many to Christ. May he rest in peace.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Farewell to a Friend

Today we will be traveling to Peoria to say goodbye to our dear friend Rev. Gerald Freudenburg, who was called to be with His Lord this past Sunday, February 14, 2010. Words are insufficient to express the scope of this dear man's life and legacy. We are just a tiny fraction of the many who loved him. As the senior pastor at my husband's first full time cantorate, he went from being boss to being friend and surrogate father and grandfather. I think the thing that I will most remember about him is his serenity. He truly radiated the joy and peace of Christ, taking each day as it came and giving thanks at all times for both blessings and trials.

Here is a brief photo journey through the years that we knew Pastor Freudenburg.

Husker Fever (pictured with Pastor are Phillip and
Rev. Dr. David Peter)



At Caitlin's baptism (with Pastor's wife Jo--"Grandma Jo" to our kids)




Holding Caitlin (there's that Nebraska shirt again)



Giving the keynote speech at Phillip's 40th birthday party
Another shot from Phillip's birthday party. That's Caitlin on the receiving end of Pastor's smile (and that's Evan in my tummy).

Phillip, Jo, Pastor, and dear friends Vicki and Kay.


Phillip and Pastor. I love this photo and wish it weren't so light. It was taken outside at night. But the posture and expression of the two men speaks volumes about their relationship.

Goodbye, Pastor. We will miss you so very much.


Monday, February 15, 2010

Your Tax Dollars at Work

I spent much of the day accompanying young musicians in Solo & Ensemble competition. The event took place at a local high school. Many of the students I accompanied were assigned to classrooms that are normally home to social science instruction (history, government, and economics). In one room the chalkboard had some writing that had not been erased. It was a comparison/contrast chart of the major political parties' stands on certain issues, one of which was censorship. According to the chart, on the question of free speech the Democrat party is "pro-freedom" and the Republican party is "pro-censorship."

This is the sort of thing with which students in our public schools are regularly indoctrinated. And we are told that this is education, and that the government needs more money to do more of it.

I could be wrong, but I think if more parents took the time to go into classrooms and see and hear what their children are being taught rather than blindly accepting that the schools are doing their jobs, they might decide it's time to not only starve the public education beast but to send him back to school himself.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Looking on the Bright Side

So, it's a good thing that my 2-year-old Concise OED is falling apart because it is never, ever sitting on the bookshelf but instead sees more action in our house than a Harry Potter novel, right?

Right?

What Would You Have Said?

Today at church we celebrated Jesus' Transfiguration (recounted in Matthew 17:1-9, Mark 9:2-8, and Luke 9:28-36). I think all the emphasis on Jesus' physical appearance must have gotten my 6-year-old thinking, because during the sermon he asked me, "Mommy, why do we worship a God we can't see?"

Wow. I know what I told him, but I would be curious to hear your thoughts. I'm wondering if there is more I could have said, or if I could have said it better.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

A Chess Milestone

I am in Milwaukee this weekend, serving as chauffeur/chaperone/moneybags/head cheerleader for my son, who is participating in the U.S. Amateur Team-North. Trevor is playing top board and serving as captain of his team, which settled on the team name "U-Knighted." There are four Amateur Team events this weekend, one each in the North, South, East and West. The winning team from each of the regional events will advance to the final round to play in the National Amateur Team Championship.

The Amateur Team tournament rules require that the average rating of the team not exceed 2200. What this means is that the ratings of individual players on a team can vary widely, since all that matters is the team average. Each team consists of four players whose position on the team is determined by their relative ratings (the highest rated player plays Board 1, the second-rated player plays Board 2, etc.). When two teams are paired, the players of the same team position are paired. Because the make-up different teams can be very different, this makes for some fascinating pairings. Several of the teams playing this weekend have Grandmasters sitting at the top board, and last night Trevor got to play one of them, GM Alex Yermolinsky, rated 2583 (Trevor is rated 2183). Here is a short biography of Yermolinsky, borrowed from a listing on Amazon for one of his books:

"Grandmaster Alex Yermolinsky is one of the strongest players in the United States. He was US Champion in 1996, and won the US Open Championship in 1995 and 1997. He has represented the USA in four Olympiads, and played board two for the team that won the World Team Championship in 1993. His credentials as a teacher are no less impressive. He assisted Irina Levitina in her bid for the Women's World Championship in 1982-4, while his former pupils include top-class grandmasters such as Alexander Khalifman and Vladimir Epishin. After his arrival in the United States in 1989, he continued coaching, with one of his pupils, Boris Kreiman, winning the US Junior Championship in 1993."

And here is a 30-second video of Trevor's round against Yermolinsky, a round that he went on to win!



If I were a betting woman (I'm not), my money would have been on Yermolinsky (sorry, Trevor). But I can't say I'm surprised to see my son beat a Grandmaster (his first time to do so in tournament play). It was only a matter of time (and hard work and study and determination, all of which Trevor demonstrates better than anyone I know). Trevor's victory has already garnered quite a bit of attention from those attending the tournament, and deservedly so. And what I have also noticed is what I have seen repeatedly in the past: people love rooting for Trevor because he is just such a gentleman. The mother of one of Trevor's teammates, also a young high school player, told me, "It couldn't have happened to a nicer person."

Sometimes it seems in fact that others are happier for Trevor than he is for himself. I suggested to him this morning that he should email his teacher (GM Yury Shulman) to let him know about last night's round. He informed me that he would do so after the tournament is over. Typically, he is already focusing on the next round and doesn't want to be distracted. He also, in his characteristically humble way, eschews any sign of gloating or celebration. In fact, he confided to me that if there is any game that he has mixed feelings about winning, it is one against a Grandmaster. I think he is probably empathizing with his opponent, thinking about how he himself hates losing, but particularly hates losing to a significantly lower-rated player. It's hard on both the ego and the rating.

But that doesn't mean he doesn't do his utmost to defeat whoever is sitting across the board from him, Grandmaster or not! It's the way of the chess world, and I daresay GM Yermolinsky understands.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Who needs Dick and Jane . . .

. . . when you have Calvin and Hobbes?

I love homeschooling!

(I don't know why the video is showing up with bars. If you click play, it will play.)

Update: it appears the bars are gone. Just a glitch, I guess.



Reading from Cheryl on Vimeo.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

How To Melt Your Wife's Heart (For Men Only)

Watch her in the mirror as she's getting ready for work in the morning, then announce softly, "You are so beautiful."

You'll have to pick her up off the floor.

Just thought a few of my male readers might appreciate a Valentine's Day tip. And you're welcome. :-)

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Finding the Balance

Woke up at 5:00 a.m. Out the door before 7:00. Had to shovel the driveway before leaving. Spent over an hour driving in the snow to get to and from two choir rehearsals at two different schools followed by a string of invidividual rehearsals with students participating in Solo & Ensemble. Home a little after 1:00. Talked to children for a few minutes, talked on the phone with husband, had lunch. I have been working all day and I am sitting here feeling guilty for escaping into the computer for a few minutes. I should be doing laundry, or cleaning house, or practicing piano, or giving my 6-year-old a piano lesson, or reading to him or playing with him instead of being glad he's watching Tom & Jerry right now, or reading my older children's written work, or calling my mom, or making some progress on the taxes, or . . . or . . . or . . . .

Now don't get me wrong. I'm taking the break (I'm writing this blog post, aren't I?). And I don't think anyone thinks less of me for doing so. But I myself am feeling lazy for not being more materially productive right this moment. There is so much to do! Not only that, tonight I'm going to (ring-a-ding-ding) watch Lost on television. That's a whole hour set aside to sit and do nothing--and here I am wallowing in laziness instead of using every spare moment to accomplish something! My internal guilt alarm is is about to blow its circuits.

Sometimes I congratulate myself on my work ethic. I have a lot to do and I do a lot. There are people who depend on me and by and large I am there for them. There is much on my plate and by the grace of God most days I manage to keep all but a few crumbs from falling off.

Other times, though, I curse my overdeveloped work ethic. I think God wants us to be able to relax and enjoy life. He rested, and He wants us to also. There is nothing wrong with taking time to do so. Not only that, but we need to rest so as to be able to return to duty refreshed and energized.

Yet it still remains that at any given moment there is a tension between service to others and service to oneself, between productivity and relaxation. And to find a guiltless balance between the two is something I have not so far figured out.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Lamb of God, Pure and Holy

A lovely arrangement, beautifully performed by our high school youth ensemble during communion at church yesterday. My daughter is the first singer in the second row (in black skirt); my son can be heard but not seen, as his position at the far end of the second row places him squarely behind the young man in the first row. Several of these singers double as instrumentalists for the group, at various times playing keyboards, guitar, bass, clarinet and flute as needed. On this piece everyone sang, accompanied by my husband at the piano.

Towards the end of the video the camera pans to the altar and then to my younger son and his godmother (a.k.a. pastor's wife, who was sitting with Evan in church this day so I could attend to the sound system).

Enjoy!

Lamb of God, Pure and Holy from Cheryl on Vimeo.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

A Tableau

A tableau is a kind of freeze-frame--a still picture that strikingly embodies much more than just a single moment in time. An example of a literary tableau is seen here in William Faulkner's short story, "A Rose for Emily." The author even uses the word tableau in his description:

The Griersons held themselves a little too high for what they really were. None of the young men were quite good enough to Miss Emily and such. We had long thought of them as a tableau: Miss Emily a slender figure in white in the background, her father a spraddled silhouette in the foreground, his back to her and clutching a horsewhip, the two of them framed by the backflung front door.

The literary tableau is a unifying device in the story, as the changing tableaux of Emily and her father are used to frame the story and reflect the passage of time.

I had a tableau moment last night. It was 7:00 p.m. I was in the middle of washing dishes, enumerating in my head the things I still needed to do before the day was over: 1) go to my mom's place (in the snow) to check her mail and feed the bird; 2) go see my mom herself at the rehab center where she is currently recovering from a fall; 3) put sheets on the 6-year-old's bed; 4) oversee 6-year-old getting ready for bed; and 5) work on an editing project that is way overdue (not because of me!) and must get done this weekend.

Of course, also flying around in my head were all the other things that also need to be done but that I was reconciling myself to not checking off the list on this particular day. So the last thing I needed was for the aforementioned 6-year-old to sidle into the kitchen, smile winsomely, and ask, "Would you play hide-and-seek with me, Mommy?"

Talk about a big heart-sinking moment. He didn't have much mommy time yesterday. But it couldn't be helped. I told him No. Mommy doesn't have enough time for you. Visiting hours at the rehab center are over at 8:00. Maybe your brother can play hide-and-seek with you.

There's another tableau for you, one that is representative not of my days but of Evan's.

Oh, that I could take an editing pen to my life!

Monday, February 1, 2010

One Little Word

We sang one of my favorite hymns in church yesterday: "How Firm a Foundation" (Lutheran Service Book #728). Here's the first stanza:

"How firm a foundation, O saints of the Lord,
Is laid for your faith in His excellent Word
What more can He say than to you He has said
Who unto the Savior for refuge have fled?"

The image of God speaking reminds me of the third stanza of "A Mighty Fortress Is Our God" (LSB 656):

"Though devils all the world should fill,
All eager to devour us,
We tremble not, we fear no ill,
They shall not overpower us.
This world's prince may still
Scowl fierce as he will.
He can harm us none.
He's judged, the deed is done.
One little word can fell him."

That "one little word" should really be written as "One Little Word." Because the One Little Word that sends the Devil packing is the same One Little Word that is the cornerstone of the faith. It is the Word that was with God in the beginning, the Word that became flesh only to be nailed to a cross for the sin of all mankind. What more, indeed, can God say? In the name Jesus He has said it all, to all, for all time. The "excellent Word" to which the hymnist refers is in fact the One who is the "most excellent of men," whose "lips have been anointed with grace" (Psalm 45:2). As the Creator spoke his creation into being, the Son speaks salvation to the fallen. And His redeemed in turn speak the One Little Word of His name back to Him, confessing that saving faith before all the world so that others may hear it and likewise be saved.

I am a word person. I love to read and write, to play with words and to study them. Every sentence is a sort of puzzle for me, and I greatly enjoy the process of fitting all the pieces of the puzzle together in just the right way. It can be a challenge to achieve the desired rhythm and cadence, to make the words flow together so that they not only communicates clearly but are pleasing to the ear. I think I have a knack for it, but at the same time, I have to work at it. It doesn't just happen.

In contrast to my many and labored human words, words which rattle on too long, try too hard, and are prone to being misunderstood, there stands the One Little Word of Jesus, indivisible and all-encompassing in its simplicity. I speak, and it is all resounding gongs and clanging cymbals (1 Cor. 13); He speaks, and His Word is love. How glad I am that the One Little Word my God chose to speak was to name His Son, Jesus, rather than to name me, for all time, Sinner! Little it may seem, yet it is big enough to chase away my sin and that of all the world. Thanks be to God for His One Little Word!