". . . little shall I grace my cause

In speaking for myself. Yet, by your gracious patience,

I will a round unvarnish'd tale deliver . . ."

(William Shakespeare's Othello, I.iii.88-90)

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

That moment . . .

. . . when you find yourself feeling blue because

--almost the whole left side of your body hurts due to a foot that probably needs surgery

--you are afraid of having surgery

--your refurbished laptop is broken and the place you bought it from is not coming through with warranty service

--you want to write but your laptop is broken

--you want to write but you can't seem to find the time or focus

--you have this blog that you don't know what to do with anymore

--your mom who lives with you does not like the new house, or much of anything at all

--you realize the college kids are leaving in about a week

--you're feeling and looking old

--you realize that the normal routine is about to return and you didn't get done nearly what you wanted over break

--your 4-year-old car that is taking in water when it rains just passed the 100,000 mark

--you feel utterly guilty and stupid about feeling blue because not only is it Christmas, but you have a great new house, a great husband, great kids, a great church, and overall good health, so what business do you have feeling sad, you big dumb ungrateful ninny?



5 comments:

Jody said...

" you didn't get done nearly what you wanted over break"

Not to pick on you, but. . .it's called "break" for a reason ;)

John Flanagan said...

Remember what the Bible teaches about being too caught up in the "cares of the world?" Seek peace of mind in Jesus, knowing that many things we fret about and experience stress over need to be approached calmly and rationally. Don't make normal situations into drama. When we are all over the map emotionally we are not much encouragement to others, and we become role models of the out of control reality stars we see on television. So much angst! Learn to trust God more and seek self control. Happy New Year. You are a Christian. You are saved by grace. You have a Savior and His personal assurance that you will see Him face to face someday... You are blessed. Don't forget it. And don't feel your blog is so important....it is mere pride to believe all we do is so urgent we cannot take the time to just relax and say a small prayer to the God who made you and loves you.

Anna Mussmann said...

Making a new home is more stressful, in odd and unexpected ways, than we anticipate, I think--it seems to trigger a lot of blue-tinged reflections for everyone I know. Here's hoping you feel better soon!

Beth Hawley said...

I am a little behind and just read your latest post. I hope you are feeling better. I just wanted to thank you for your honesty. It's ok to have all of those feelings, at least I hope so because I think i have felt almost everyone of those exact same thoughts in the last few weeks. Again, I completely love how you shared your feelings, openly and simply. It is what it is some days. Hang in there and know you are not alone. But you have a sister in Christ praying for you and along side of you.

Cheryl said...

Thank you, everyone. I'm sorry I have been so slow to acknowledge your comments. Several weeks ago life took an unexpected turn when my mother was hospitalized. She is now recovering in skilled nursing but things remain a little hectic. Your kind words are much appreciated!